My Personal Rebellion

Giving honor and thanks to our God for blessing us with another day. To open our eyes to live in his will another day.

I was in bible study and the scripture we were studying from was Ephesians 2. This scripture dwelt on the works of the devil being in the heart of those who do not follow Gods will. How is mercy towards us is so rich just because he loves us. We are separated from his chosen but we are indeed members of his family. We are united in Christ. We are his masterpiece.

But what came to my mind is how we cannot afford to forget where we come from. We can’t forget our own rebellion against Christ. It first starts with us we must be honest with ourselves. Hold ourselves accountable for what we have done. Knowing right from wrong yet still moving and reacting to what feels good it justified in our sinful hearts. As difficult as this is for most of us, I believe what helps is knowing that God understands the sin within my heart. He knows it’s there. He knows I fight with this evil heart everyday. This is why the righteous will Scarcely make it in. But God is merciful. He understands the battle. He died on the cross for this very reason. He forgives us daily for this very reason.

I know this personally. My personal rebellion starts with doubt. I still struggle with doubt. Doubt that he will bless me with what he promised me. Doubt my very walk. My confidence in myself wavers when it comes to living my life according to word. I question myself and his meanings. Doubt is not the will if the Lord. The enemy brings doubt. And alongside doubt is fear and mistrust. Once I reprimanded myself for doubting him and myself I begin to remember all the many times he was there for me. If nothing else, he died for me. That should be enough confidence right there. But despite my shortcomings he there to encourage me through his word, through prayer and through his chosen.

Never dwell on your rebellion but never forget. Share your struggle with those who are also struggling to be more like him and grow in Christ together.